hampeh!

nnt la ye layan tag tuh abg amin oi!

tunjukkan aku

Musik dari jiwa
Lagu dari hati
Cerita sepurnama
Canda dan menangis

Belum ku selami
Caturan terjadi
Lelah dipukul badai
Apa mungkin terlerai?

Oh...

*Soalan tersendu
Balas hampa bisu
Tuhan, tunjuk sesuatu
Apa dia yang satu itu?

Tunjukkan aku
Tunjukkan aku

Chorus:

Apa bisa ku cinta
Kamu seperti mana
Aku dicinta kamu?
Aku dijaga kamu?
Atau kamu terlalu
Indah buat diriku?
Beda dari diriku?
Aku pun tak menahu

(Repeat *)

(Repeat chorus 2x)

Aku pun tak menahu
Aku pun tak menahu

Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?

Tuhan, tunjukkan aku

ready, on your mark, get set, GO!

its unbelievable thinking time flies so fast you wish you could turn back time. its exactly how i feel when i'm typing this entry.

as i'm typing -while listening to some bands do their magics on mtv-, i'm repacking my bags. throw away the stuffs yang ngarut2 and pack all the necessary stuffs. come to think of it, the thrown away -tak buang laa,simpan balik dlm almari- macam important je. ahaks~ aku tak reti packing barang i mean, what should be in the bag and what not. basic stuffs tak pyh ckp, aku taw! tp yg complementary tuh. huhuhu. anak dara pe la ni?

i afraid of leaving something that matter the most while i'm there and keep in mind, kat bota tuh BUKAN kulim. at least kulim dekat la gak ngan perlis. naik bas pun senang. huhh-sigh- tp what is life without sacrifices right? worr. byknye barang aku nak bawak nihh. nak pindah ke trus ke?
huhuhuhu.

ptptn tak settle lagik. nyampah tul call. xreti nak angkat.

happee befday! to me...

yay! berumo 18 gak aku akhernya!

gumbiranya!!!
ahaks~




aku gumbira!!

bawalah daku pergii..

brg2 dah 3/4 packed. xcited pun dh ada nihh. cuma benda yg tak beli lagi je yg tak packed.

petang td arep belanja makan western food kat d'sena. he picked me up and then we went to yatie's to amek her then off we go to d'sena. lawak tul time lepak2 tadi. byk adegan yg tak sempat aku nak rakam. hahahaha. what can i say, my wallet dah berperisa fresh oren waktu balik tuhhh.ahaks~ -cmne la ang pegang gelas arep oii!-

saat aku menaip entri ni aku ngah blurr. *dah tuh watpe taip?

td aku gi umah abg zani *my cousin- ade wat makan2 sikit. tu la keje aku. makan, Makan dan MAKAN!
gemok la aku. *ternyata, impian dan doa noor amin akan menjadi kenyataan! siot tul-

dah tak tau nak taip pe..
nnt la aku pikir len..

p/s-
happy bday! yay!

save you

Take a breath I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

Ooh Ooh
I wish that I could tell you something
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know that

If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you 

countdown

hari ni tarikh 22dec. sok 23. *yay!

i havent packing ANYTHING yet. siang tadi mak dah tanya. but yes, aku tak packing hape pun lagik. even baju. ahaks~ nak p ke tak aku nih?

nak kata barang tak cukop, semuanya ada except few things yang boleh beli last minute. cepatnya masa berlalu. aku rasa cam baru je quit poli semalam. tup tup dah nak pegi pulak. xcited+rama2 in da stomach pun ade gak nihh. cuz aku di-warning-kan oleh mmber2 yg merangkap senior2 aku kat sana yg minggu MMS (orientasi) bakal menguji mental n kesabaran aku. aku cam "ye ke?". lorrr. nurmal r tuh kan? lama mane seminggu tuh? *i'll regret saying that, mark my words.

tp yg aku suka sekalik, leh pakai jeans! ahaks~ sluar2 aku byk jeans. so, tak cam kat poli dulu, nehi kabhi nehi. klu jumpa dek mak guard n pak guard, mampos disuruhnya aku balik change.

dgr citer dak2 UiTM masuk balik 28dec. so, minggu MMS aku dijalankan tgh khalayak ramai laa. abehlaa. huhuhuhu. harap there's no raging thing. abg2 aku leh r nak buli2 aku, tapi org len, nehi kabhi nehi laa.

p/s nak tgk TWILIGHT. tp panggung xd kat perlih nih. member2 jum pi a.staq!

wifi dan aku

ahaks.
semalam itu jiran off lagik dia punya wifi. aiyook dokter, jgnla itu macam.
ahaks.
maw dia taw pebuatan aku yg agak terkutuk nih, mampos aku kena beeep! beeep *action kamen!

time aku typing entri nih, aku ngan mak wif ayah *naim is tidur-ing beside are watching 'live' mawiekin nikah. sambil2 tuh, ade la komen komen tak diundang kuar esp mak.ahaks. semalam aku discover ema n naak antar our class pic kat mag remaja (lisa surihani as the covergirl *siyes dia lawa, *noor amin @ mohd naim, sila tackle buat jadi kakak ipar aku =p) and it's in the latest issue. teruja aku cuz muka aku agak clear dlm pic tuh. ahaks. poyo!

hari ni mak cakap byk kenduri. that's it, i'm not going. oo..ngan panas kat luar, nak siap2 lagik, nak kena makan lagik *dah le aku ngah gumuk. nanti la musim aku rajen sikit, aku gi la. dah le aku pakai inai, klu siap lebeh nanti, org tersalah pengantin lak. ahaks *bapak perasan! date registration UiTM is around the corner, few days away *so does my special day!- tp aku tak prepare pe pun lagik. packing pun tak lagik. sepatutnya aku dah start nih. cuz si iskandar bukan kulim. mane leh tinggal2 barang. yg aku taw, 3beg besar mmg akan jd load keta proton saga ayah aku tuh.

err..aku tak mandi lagikk!
ahaks. *pe nak jadi ngan anak dara ni! ok.


ye mak!
nak pi mandi la nihhh!

mawi ekin kawen?

ade aku kesahh?
pedulik la.

hahahahaha.

satu je, jgn ikut trend semasa ye!


*abg aku bila lagi?

abby norman cerai?

pedulik hape aku?
hahahahaha.

twilight!

kenapa perlih xdak cinema?
pliss!
aku keboringan dan ketinggalan. bingung tul!



edward cullen!
kewl!

p/s.
abg amin! klu ada ongkos, novel twilight by stephanie meyer satu ya? ahaks

photo session

abg noikh starting to perasan yg dia model malaya masa balik hari tuh.
teruja dek kamera naim, dia telah menjadikan hari harinya di perlih negeriku ni sebagai hari photoshootnya. and lucky me, naim yg jadi mangsa photographer. thank god! melayan kerenahnya yang kalah naomi campbell tuh membuatkan aku terpikir 8juta kali nak sign up him as model. ahaks. *tak termasuk aset terbarunya, perutt..ahaks. yg tak bestnya, they're using my room to get somewhat passport-like pics. bingung tul. memanjat katil aku pastu suh aku buat lighting.

pastu, terfikir kat mata ayer, umah tok, the view is quite priceless cuz umah kampung still banyak kat area tuh. pe lagi, abg amin sebagai driver, abg noikh as the perasan nak mati model, naim as 'gil bensimone', kak nana, lala, arfan and not to forget, me yg nak gak bergambar =p, we're off to mata ayer. *mata ayaq!

kat sebelah ni kat umah tok. it was taken right after kami sampai. aku ngan naim selalu said between both of us. if we're damn rich *kena usaha utk tu! rumah tok ni akan kami upgrade jadi umah kayu yang siyes lawa. banyak gak planning kami dua. ahaks. but insyaAllah, in God's willing. who knows?
then, we went to the railway. kat situ view pun mengancam. naim komplen yang petang tu dia datang dua kali cuz earlier that petang, he took his friends for some photoshoots too. sape suh. ye tak?
nasib la takde train. cuak gak. aku ni bab tempat tempat merbahaya memang cuak selalu. aku cepat pikir bukan bukan. penah gak aku suarakan ke-cuak-an aku kat member2 satu ketika dulu, pas kena sound aku jadik simpan je ke-cuak-an aku tuh. huhuhu. bukan pe. aku mmg seorang yg cuak!

ni time kena kutuk direct ngan model perasan!

memeluk tiang *cambest je tiang tu hari tuh

then, kami gerak gi RFC, new fast food restaurant kat depan our neighbourhood. lepak situ. kutuk mengutuk sesama sendiri dan kutuk kedai gak. ahaks. siann RFC tuhh. tak pasal pasal.

yg sayangnya, gambar satu family tak amek pun? ye tak?
bial yg sulung tuh dah blah balik spore, baru sebok komplen takdak gambar family? pe laa..

buhsan

aku dah bosan
aku dah bosann..
ahaks..

we lie we cheat we steal

this entry is neither for fun nor serious matter. its a subjective.
well, we all got our own point of view, dontcha think?

i'm writing this in MaNglish. sorry! nanti senang nak sampaikan pe yg aku ngah pk.
as mentioned above, lie aka cheat aka tipu.

aku menaip entri ni bukan sebab pe? beberapa hari ni aku teringat seorang yang penah
aku anggap kawan who used to cheat me a great deal. aku lak sememangnya seorang
kanak kanak naif lagi lurus bendul. penipuan dia tuh agak aku takleh terima cuz i was
very sincere to him. caring, and others sampaikan sesorang time tu amat amat cemburu.
-seseorang?-

everything that came out from his mouth is a total lie. and i dont wanna think bout it
no more. he used to get in touch but i didnt reply. bukan tak memaafkan cuma serik!
i forgive him already. so, move on and i act like kami tak penah kenal. aku bukan nak
jadi pendendam atau pe, tp mmg aku tak boleh dah nak kawan dengan dia.

i'm not saying yang aku tak penah tipu, in fact, the whole world does. cuma, bila kita
ditipu, mesti rasa macam di-betray je kan? i know yang aku pun bukan malaikat. tapi, face it,
you cant deny that lying can be betrayal to others.

have you been cheat before?
agak2 pe la penipuan yg paling takleh korang terima?

kadang kala, penipuan itu 'bukan' satu 'kesalahan'
sekadar 'menutup' kebenaran
cuma it'll be better
if
kebenaran tu yang diucap
biarpun pahit
tp at least takde la gelaran 'penipu' terlekat kat belakang baju kita.

by the way,
prank bukan menipu ye.
itu for fun!
memain!
ahaks~
cuz yg pasti, aku suka prank member2!
yea (^_^)

kenangan terindahh..ahaks

err..
adakah jiran ku -if you're in the family, you know who- telah berjaya mengesan yg kami telah hacked wifinya
tanpa permission? aiyookk. BUSTED!

ahaks

ala.
kasi can laa!

ni yang boring tahap maksima ni. nak men internet, hapdet pe yang patut tapi takleh. time aku ngah tulis nih,
mmg aku tgh hacked jiran aku punya wifi la ni. ahaks. jahat gak! tapi klu guna komputer umah, mmg slow giler
b*** la. leh bingung aku nnt. by the way, abg noikh left home to kl oredi. well, that's not the frontpage! a
couple hours before leaving, arfan bit me! sakit siot! siap berbekas merah lagi. dari jauh pun mak aku nmpak!
naseb la dak kecik lagi gumuks cam aku tuh anak sedara aku. klu takkk~ ahaks~

dia geget aku kat bahagian atas lengan. pandai tul dia tinggalkan kenangan sementara nak tunggu next year jumpa
balik.hahaha. hebat tul dak kecik ni. tapi jgn la sampai ikut jejak papanya yang kurang asam lagi huduh perangainya tuh. suka2 ati mencalitkan bau ketiak kat hidung aku. siot tul la. hahahha

dahla.
camne la aku nak ilangkan bekas geget nih? nnt org igt luvbite lakk.

friendship

frankly i said i missed all the friends i was very close to back when i was in National Service. and now, my miss 'pocket' is added with my poly buddies. rindu nak lepak lepak ngan ifah, bellamoih and syud. we're very damn close. turun kafe together gether.ahaks. bilik v4-127 tuh memang bilik rasmi aku utk lepak2. huhuhu.

well, for me, friendship amat amat berharga. no man cant live by himself. aku sebelum ni banyak menangis sebab kawan kawan. i admit. even aku leh duk sorang sorang, but i can only survive by having a friend on my side. (bab family tak masuk cuz tajuk utama friendship ye.amek perhatian!) fresh lagi in my living memory, i cried cuz kena pulau dek kawan kawan atas sebab satu kes yg tak dapat nak dinyatakan kat sini. time tu jugak, aku kerap tak gi sekolah. duk umah je. tapi last last aku bangun balik. so, i survived in my high school life. but i still love my friends back at kigs. lagipun, time sekulah kan budak budak lagi.

then here came national service. here, i got so many friends yang i appreciate sgt. we're laughing, joking with each other and did lots stuffs together gether. memang best sgt. of coz la, kat mane2 pun akan ade yg tak puas hati ngan kita, but come to think of it, macam mana nak build self confidence if kita syik nak jadi diri kita berdasarkan kemahuan org lain. jadikla diri sendrik kan? teringat my bro once said, idop ni jgn dengaq cakap org, kalau tak, memang takkan puas la hidop kita. rite? sampai sekarang aku still contact ngan member member plkn. jauh dekat tetap contact.

next, polytechnic. kat sini aku memang agak culture shock la gak cuz aku jumpa banyak jenis spesis manusia yang jarang ditemui. banyak betul perangai and kerenah. tapi kat sini jugak aku dapat member yang best lagi kewl. kira leh buat geng la. ahaks. especially DPR1A. iffah, syud, bellamoih, naak, shila and others. memang happening lah! plus senior senior yang rajin tego, buat lawak.

for me, biar seburuk mana pun kawan tuh, if we ada give and take, tolerant mmg semoi. lagipun, ada untung ke musuh musuh nih? aku tak suka buat musuh. for me, klu ada yg tak suka aku, boh layan je. nak wat camner, if they dont like me, then i can do nothing bout that. tak kenal maka tak cinta. tu je.aku punya banyak teman teman yang sengal lagi cam nak hempok je pale, tapi aku jugak jenis pemaaf. klau ada orang leh terima kelemahan aku, pe salah aku belajar accept people as who they are.rite?

so, sape nak jadik kawan aku?
angkat tangan!!

makan lagikk!

whoaa.
nak diet hapenya?
td dah makan besaq!

hahahaha. just now we had an awesome dinner. ikan bakar with tomyam and sotong tepung goreng with few other extra dishes. yummy! memang sah aku tak boleh diet kat umah ni. gumuks! hahahaha. well, dinner like this one hanya ada jika :
-abg noikh's home
-birthday smbody
-celebrate pe pe?
-adek beradek mai umah
-poket ngah penohh!

earlier, LaLa was brought to the hospital cuz her maktok concerns that she's coughing non-stop even when sleeping. for a 4 year old kiddo, mmg cam alarming ja. dah sampai umah, makan ubat la kanak kanak tuh. siang tadi we went to our kampung ( meself, abg amin (driver), naim (photographer), abg noikh wif kak nana n the kids ) Mata Ayer. kampung ni agak best cuz still ada ciri ciri kampung. cuma development yang semakin ber+ membuatkan all of those will be replace with concretes. plus, in few years, there will be no more yard in front of rumah tok yang lawa and penuh bunga raya yang cantik catik ( various colours )cuz the gomen gonna build a flyover. umah tok dekat ngan railway so, nak buat flyover so that takyah kena stop keta dah kat railway tu nanti. for me, i dont recall any nostalgia except knowing there was a barber place near the house, kedai apek yang selalu jadi mangsa untuk kami beli stuff yg tak cukup bila bertandang kat sana. i remember when arwah tok ada, mak suh aku tido kat sana teman tok. during those times, sejuk giler pagi pagi. and arwah tok susah payah siapkan aku, masak untuk aku. cuz aku budak lagi time tu. such wonderful memories.

now, umah tok hanya digunakan kat tingkat bawah je. tingkat atas dah kosong. urm. i'm thinking that if i can afford it in the future, memang aku akan renovate umah tok supaya jadi umah kayu kampung yang cantik and semua family gathering buat kat umah. angan angan besar sungguh. insyAllah, berkat dengan usaha, tak salah utk berangan, kan?

we went there to have a photoshoot since abg noikh mula memerasankan dirinya. i took advantage too. ahakz!
plus naim tgh mengexpresikan dirinya sebagai seorang photographer.

after that, we went to RFC. having snacks and lepak lepak. pastu balik. then ayah took abg noikh and his kids of cuz, kak nana too to Kuala Perlis. aku tak ikut. tido. hikhikhik. patutla lemak banyak.

and now, aku ngah lepak wif my bro amin dalam bilik.dua dua duk berharap wireless jiran yang kami hacked ni tak tutup lagi. ahakz. jahat gle hacked hak org.

haaarrrgghh
ngantuknya.

nnt la sambung lagik.

i'm chubbier!

gosh.

its been long since last post. well. living at poly without owning a notebook makes me katak living bawah tempurung. plus, the favorite links have been blocked by the wi-fi -camne la nak hapdet-. well. worry no more. i'm back to pick up the pieces i've left since few weeks ago.

sorry for keeping you guessing where the hell i've been m.i.a. *abg amin toksah wat taktaw.

first, announcing to the world, i've quit studying in poly. alhamdullillah. after lots of views, thoughts i decided to go after my dream. well, i dream of becoming a designer since primary and now, getting the chance to do it, it'll be better if i go for it. right? i still gonna miss poly. 6months is not a short period i must say. its a chapter in my journey called life for used to be a marketing student.

next, saving the drama for the soaps, i'm getting chubbier! arghh. gumuks. fatty meri saathi. in other word, i'm making my brothers more happier than ever to call me budak gemok again. suckss.
hahahha. i cant deny that i've been eating quite a lot back when i was in poly. gambar kat sebelah is my image before enroling into ptsb. mungkin time ni dah nampak aku chubby sikit but believe me, at this moment, i can wear my jeans perfectly fit and there was no trouble while wearing it. no inhaling exhaling happened. kira kurus gak laa. makan pun jarang time nih. bukan jaga badan tapi tak lapar *alasan!!. however, abang2 aku still panggil aku budak gemok padahal member2 banyak cakap aku kurus * hikhikhik.

and this one. is the latest me! gosh. barangsiapa tak nampak, kena la jumpa optometris. hikhikhik. and now, i cannot wear my jeans without inhaling and exhaling session. argh. yeah! i'm gonna start diet! DIET! tapi boleh ke? aku diet? -lariiii!dunia nak terbalik!- i've never been on diet before and never planning or even intending to diet also. haiyaa. how to become kurus again maa? makan julap? buang segala toksik dalam badan ni dan tinggal sehari semalam dalam tandas? err. katakan TAK NAK. so, kena xtvate balik body ni. dulu i'm quite athletic. sukan gak la. but now, makan tak ingat dunia. no wonder chubby. sekali makan bantai habis. tak kasi can punya. hahahahha. tambah-tambah aku ni pemalas. *nnt ada la komen yang bakal agree dengan statement ni* i knew itt! well, nak deny watpe? kan abang abang ku sekalian? - i know you guys are reading this!-
well, all in all, i cant wait to embark on new life kat UiTM. bukan sekadar mengejar status pelajar Uni - cuz i got a friend and i really sick of him yang bangga sangat being student Uni while i was in poly- tetapi mengejar cita-cita yang kini terbuka luas peluangnya. and thanx so much to my bros for buying me this NEC VERSA E6300. syukran jaazila ya akhi.
i've got the best brothers in the world and wont trade them for anything. *ermm..klu emas, permata??

well, i wonder how was it gonna be if i'm sitting for my finals and rejecting UiTM. cuz i once said to a friend of mine, " aku dah menyampah ngan uni kat malaysia ni".

that response was due to rejection from ipt on july intake before this. thinking friends yang dapat masuk thru orang dalam adalah unfair and i got rejected even from poly at that time - i got poly after appeal- memang hati terbakar la. lu bikin gua pannaaaaas * bak kata spark dlm rempit.

forget that! i got this chance on my own effort and there's no one gonna stop me reaching it *unless meself*. girl powerr! ahaks. terpengaruh nagn chickflick r nih. aiyook.

till then.
i'll be writing soon.

blur,blink2,blank!

argghh.

ni yang aku maleh about making choices. choose between two things yang very2 close substitute. aku takmaw merasai opportunity cost. ( bajet blaja eko ). currently aku study kat politeknik tuanku sultanah bahiyah in diploma in marketing. few weeks more, aku akan habis sem 1. the thing is that i got an offer from UiTM for dip in interior design at UiTM sri iskandar perak darul ridzuan ( somehow, the state that i realy2 like most ). so, which one i'd choose? UiTM intake is on 20dec and my poly finals ends on 15 dec. that mean i got 4days holiday before reprogramming my brain for switching courses. 180degrees changes i'm talking bout.

phew!
what should i do?

lots of friends encourage me to enter UiTM ( in fact, i prefer the course ) but the thing is boleh ke aku bawak subjek course tu cuz i've been criticized by the interviewer before of my capability ( referring to my SPM result ) in pursuing this course.

aku
blurr
blink2
blank

taktaw laa..
mak!!!

bz.tensi.homesick! MAK!!

bz
tensi
homesick

ni la yg aku sedang rasa. i've got a month away before final. my friends back at universities are now struggling their best. lecturers are now rushing up to finish all the silibus before finals. tensi wo! assignments,quizzes,tests and lots of others. damn tired and damned busy. homesick. i missed home a bit. ye la. duk kat kamsis ni serba tak cukup. kat umah nak apa ja mak buatkan, ayah tunaikan. but for sure, i'm renting a house with other 9 friends of mine. the house is 5mins from poli and we've got reliable neighbours. a doctor, a police, a jail warden and the house owner is a jail warden too. so, a lil bit secure i think and my soon-to-be housemates are mt classmates. so, senang nak urus activity rumah.

so far my life kat poli still can be handled. its just bila ada keja, i cant do it rightaway because of not owning a computer/laptop. so, nak tunggu kawan2 habis buat assignment,ym,check emails and lotsa kan mcm sengal ja.

lagipun life kat sini dah agak berubah sikit. i mean, friends. kalau dulu aku bagaikan isi ngan kuku ngan NaAk, but nowadays, suam2 kuku ja. we're not fighting, tak gaduh langsung. perhaps kami tak sekepala. i mean, we're not on the same page. she's in her world and i'm in mine. nak combine both worlds, mmg agak susah.
dunno. tp jgn risaw
kami masih mmpu bergelak ketawa bersama sama. after all, she is my roomate and she's the first person i knew back when first entering this poli.

ok..
its getting really really late
got 8am class tomorrow and its 3am already.

nunite

restart : sheet #1

i'm back

dah lame tak online!
sekali lagi..maklumla,takdak lagi yg nak sedekahkan laptop. ni pun pinjam yang member.

aku sihat, alhamdulillah and getting quite busy few days back. marching for polybriged, quizzes, assignments, kamsis n stuffs. dead tired but insyAllah i can still deal with it. sebulan dua ni banyak tul things happened around here.

first, bapak sejuk giler..

rain have been pouring down non stop here in kulim. my grades declining and friends start to wonder why. they voiced out their view on me being one of the smartest girl in class. bile mase aku ni pandai? habaq mai? but true, my grades are declining. mungkin banyak main. and i'm starting to restart the whole thing and catch up things that i've missed. my focus is on my final and my dream being the candidate for anugerah ketua jabatan. that's why i tried not to log in friendster,myspace or even blog.

next, something bad happened to my friend but i dont know how to react upon it. pity or disgusted? all in all, she's still my friend and i pray the best for her.

few weeks ago, on saturday, i went to UiTM interview for Dip in Interior Design. long story short, i got mixed up with which faculty i should go to. there's no sign on archictecture faculty along the signboard so i went to the art and design faculty since one of the panel called me and asked, " are you here for drawing exam". my mistake, i just nodded and sat for the exam. true, i would've sit for the same drawing exam if i went to the faculty i should've gone to, but the decision making wont be the same. when they starting to call for students for face to face interview, my name's not in their merit. ( of course cuz i went to the wrong faculty). the panel decide to call me and check for my offer letter. he basically said that i've missed the chance on entering UiTM cuz the panels of arch faculty had gone back to putra palace. i asked " is there anything you can do cuz i've sat for the sketching test and i'm just half-way thru". thank god! he helped me. ayah and me rushed to putra palace which only 3mins from my house and 20mins from UiTM Arau. as i reached there, i got interviewed by two panels, Dr. Dasimah and i-cant-recall-his name-. both of them asked about what happened then the real deal started. blimey, the questions and the most hardest question was which is which? you've now studying marketing and suddenly you want to change to interior design. its a whole different field. 180degrees changes you're facing here". i took my breath and said, " i want this!". insyaAllah, aku dah buat yg terbest aku leh buat and if takda rezeki, its okay, i still can study marketing. lagipun, the UiTM application tu tak sangka dapat interview cuz i was rejected in the first place.

few days ago, ada raping case involving students here. ni yg membuatkan aku cuak nak sewa umah kat luar. so, which is which? aku tak baper tahan duk dalam kamsis, tapi kat luar tu mara bahaya banyak sgt.

naim, bila aku leh dapat laptop. nak wat assignment susah bai! member2 aku pun ada assignment gak! bagi ja laptop ang tuh buat sementara waktu.

cam nak demam ja. dah berapa hari aku marching dalam hujan?

worr..boring..
bila la aku nak ada boyfriend kembali?

hahahahahah
gatai!

takleh balik perlih lagi doh!
keja berlambak. mak aku dah rindu kat aku dah!
aiyookk!

lalalalalalala!

to abg min: printer tuh kasik je kat aku! kedekut watpe? seb seket duit naim!
to pu3zyranee: hi! sape anda? kite kenal? tak kenal? jum kenal?

dalam dunia kebengongan tul aku nih

lapaq!!
nak cari makan..
nak cari makan!

se...dua minggu berhari raya!

fuh!

raya this year is quite tiring. starting from thursday after class. there's a lot in mind that cant wait to be written here. sorry aku campurkan the whole two weeks thoughts kat sini. before this malas nak melayan internet yg too damn slow and abg2 yang sebok nak pakai internet. okay! fasten your seatbelt!

- thurs sept 25th

after kalut2 mintak maaf wif lecturer,seniors yg rapat ngan diri ni,and everyone else, we ( me,kakzai,fadzli,fitri,chern,kaylee and qin ) bertolak from poli to stesyen bas. after like half an hour waiting for bus, finally dapat naik tu pun after berasak-asak wif lots of people yg nak balik kampung gak. arrived kat aloq staq around 6.30p.m i think. ( lupa sudah!! ) from penang. my cousin, kak beedah pick me and fitri up at shahab perdana. fitri tumpang aku balik perlis cuz dia nak balik umah makcik dia. kak beedah took us to bazar ramadhan kat stadium. mak oi penuh owg time tuh. after beli stuff for berbuka, we left to mak caq's home. my mak, ayah and bro, akbar waited for me there. lepas berbuka kami pun calo beti! kesian kat fitri that day. he's so damn tired, 3bungkus ayaq dia sapu. then dalam kereta, dia tido all the way from aloq setaq to kangaq. sampaikan mak pun tersenyum. letih sangat kawan aku ni!

- fri sept 26th

abg2 sampai umah except abg noikh. dia celeb raya kat singapore wif my sis in law and LaLa and Arfan. the whole house start bising2 and abg amin pun mula la unpack souvenirs yg he bought from US. aku dapat baju. so was akbar and i dont recall pe yg naim dapat.urm..that day berbuka pun agak cambest. abg amin still calling me fat girl. indeed, aku dah gemok! waaa...

skip days!

- wed oct 1st

HARI RAYA! YAY! hari yg dinantikan! malam raya aku tido pukul 3 pagi and woke up early at 6.30 i think. siap2 cumel, kami pun gi la masjid oran, felda mata ayer. that's the name of my kampung. it only took 5mins to get there. lepas sembahyang raya, whole of us visited kubur2 ahli keluarga yang terlebih dahulu pergi. the sad thing is, this year we've lost my mum's youngest brother due to pancreatic cancer. his sudden lost memang meninggalkan kesan kat family especially mak. she cried when she thought of him. Al-Fatihah buat allahyarham Chik Nik ( Raja Hanif Mas Abdullah Akhir ). lepas ziarah kubur arwah kakak, tok, chik nik, tokwan and few others, we left to rumah tok.

here's the thing, sesudah melangkah masuk umah tok, aku sakit perut sangat2. i thought aku boleh tahan. then, kami pergi istana Arau. mengadap DYMM Raja Perlis. after that, aku bisik kat mak aku, " mak, putri sakit perut sangat2 ni. balik dulu naa.." mak pun kesian tengok aku dah berpeluh2. huhuhu. takbleh blah la aku di pagi raya kali ni. spoil! then, kami beraya la seluruh felda mata ayer and kawasan yang lain. fyi, memang every year, raya first, aku sekeluarga takkan ada kat umah till after maghrib. cuz hari raya pertama adalah hari untuk berjalan for our family.

yg ruginya, none of us except naim took pictures sempena raya. everyone, again except naim, decide to wait for abg noikh balik for next raya haji. then baru tangkap gmbaq. so, takda pics la nak tunjuk kat semua. sorry ya!

skip lagi few days!

- sat oct 4th

balik umah tok kat KL. damn that day jam terok kat highway. somewhere along perak ( while mngadap jam yg terok tuh ) guess who we bumped to? pierre andre and his mum. at first, i was admiring his car from the back while abg amin was driving and naim sitting beside him. then, lepas satria abg min stop tepi his car, baru aku notice his mum, actress khatijah tan sitting at back wif her hair mengerbang cam tak sikat sepuluh hari and pierre yang ngah buat muka sengal ngan jam hari tuh.

abg min drove for almost 14hours that day. 5hours terperangkap dlm jam cuz sepatutnya perlis-kl only took 8-9hours. ayah pun dead tired bila sampai kl. ( we went to kl with separate cars )

mak mula mengatur rumah for us bermalam. malam first at rumah sewa abg min kat taman universiti indah, serdang. next day, abg min bawak us to alamanda for shopping. oh, i forgot to mention, aku time tuh mencari kedai hp cuz sengal ngan handphone yg jatuh the day before bertolak ke KL and causing damage kat button tu. cari punya cari tak dapat juga. sengal gila arr time tuh. then, bertolak ke umah tok kat kampung melayu subang. at first we went to keramat cuz paksu and tok were there at umah makteh. stay kat umah tok for two nites. amatlah boring cuz umah tok jauh ke dalam sikit. nak keluar, i'm afraid i might get lost. but lucky paksu still on leaves and took me, mak and akbar round2 kat damansara. shopping sikit and balik.

day four, the next turn bermalam was at umah makteh kat keramat. there baru hp aku dapat di fix-kan. tapi sekarang keypad aku memang keras tahap batu r. redha je la. asal leh guna. mula2 plan bermalam for a nite only tapi mak extend jadikkan dua malam. after beraya sana sini kat kl tuh, baru balik perlis.

wait, tak habis lagi..urmm..

on the way balik, singgah ipoh jap. beraya umah sedara kat sana. my mak's family originated from kuala kangsar tapi most of them dah moved to ipoh. so, mak nak gi la beraya umah depa then, singgah kulim to get my sijil2 for my UiTM interview. sepanjang journey hujan lebat except at few places. tapi after leaving penang, memang lebat terok! ayah cant see the road, so mak suh bawak slow2. as long as we can arrive home safely. we reached home at 8pm earlier this evening.

memang damn tired!
dah la cuti dua minggu ni tak pegang buku langsung. huhuhu.
nasib baik assignment takda!

this sunday class will start. so, sat ni dah kna balik poli. urm..

bila lagi nak cuti hah?

nak balik raya! takmo mai sini dahh!

the next day, after i posted my last blog, ustaz berkenaan panggil semua penghuni kamsis turun ke dataran.
then kena sembor la..

yang tak tahan, ayat agak kerek.

.."kalau hangpa nak bagitau mak bapak hangpa, bagitau. telefon saya! meh saya nak ajaq cara didik anak ikut ISLAM.."..

agak hangin tak?
yes, i understood that he was doing for our own good. waking us up for subuh prayer, tapi solat berjemaah kan sunat hukumnya. bukan wajib. one of my lecturer cakap, dia oleh dikenakan tindakan kalau parents banyak antar surat kat kementerian cuz he was criticizing the way parents bring up their own children. lecturer tu cakap, he wasn't suppose to even say that. he was jeopardizing his own career. aku ambil masa jugak nak dedahkan semua ni, tapi, my friends pun dengar benda yang sama. then, aku tak create cerita.

yeah, i know benda yang baik dia nak buat, tapi tak kena gaya.

yang aku tau, many of us dah cari rumah sewa for next sem. semua nak blah dari kamsis including me. aku pun dah set up, cuz rumah kat sini murah murah. bakal housemate pun dah cukup. cuma transport je ngah cari jalan penyelesaian. senior cakap, aku maybe dapat tempat kat kamsis lagi cuz aku AJK blok, tapi, seriously, aku nak idup dalam keadaan aman, bukan terpaksa. even ngan cara nih, non-muslim yang tertarik ngan Islam pun akan fikir, Islam ni memaksa penganutnya. tak gitu?

i dont care, balik nnt aku nak pakai seluar. lantaklah.

bukan aku pakai ketat ketat pun. baju aku semua labuh, longgar.

tapi kan..
masalahnya sekarang, aku tak beli tiket lagi. petang tadi fadzli gi usha tiket kat bus station, and miraculously, dah sold out. hampehh. padahal minggu lepas tak jual pun lagi. munguks tul. so, next plan, gi butterworth, naik bas dari situ. tapi, the main question is, ade ke bas? kang semua dah sold out, tak balik aku.

aaa...

malam ni jugak something bad happened to me. pe? nanti la aku story.

last midsem exam, marketing P1701. this wednesday.
quiz, this wed too, english for commercial purposes A1004.

study study!
pastu balik raya!
nak balik!

huwaaa!

theme colour tahun ni ialah maroon. tak sabau nak nengok baju ghaya aku.
musti sekiut aku. hehhehe perasaan!

balik ni gak aku nak shopping blouse sikit. baju baju aku kat sini limited edition. so, nak variety sikit wardrobe aku. nama pun budak commerce, kena r jaga penampilan. huhuhu.

aku rindu bukak posa kat umah. rindu everything cuz ni first time aku tak posa kat umah. aku pun tak balik lagi since awal ramadhan. so, memang dah homesick. everyday, time breakfast, aku akan teringat kat umah. lauk pauk yang sedap.

lauk wajib:
- gulai perut
-ayam percik
-kerabu kaki ayam
-daging bakar cecah air asam
-kebab
-ikan bakar

ayaq:
-tebu
-oren
-mangga
-sirap
-lengkong *cincau

kat sini almost everyday aku berbuka ngan nasi ayam. cuz aku tak minat lauk kat kafe. lagipun takda yang berubah pun. dahla mahal. ayaq lak, ayaq tebu diselang selikan dengan ayaq kelapa. kebab pun tak selalu beli cuz jaga bajet. selalunya kirim kat fadzli or ayeh. kalu aku rajin je aku kuar berbaju kurung pi bazar ramadhan yang teramat la kecik. pastu hampir setiap kedai sell the same product. aiyookk!

terawih kat sini lagi la pelik. lepas 4 rakaat, berhenti untuk tazkirah. tengok orang yang bagi tazkirah, kalu lama, lama la tazkirah tu, baru sambung balik 4 rakaat plus witir. aiyoo. duk sini segalanya aneh. biasanya terawih habis pukul 9.30pm, tapi kat sini 10.30. lama kan? padahal sama ja 8 rakaat.

aku tunggu surat dari UiTM cuz aku ada apply december intake. tapi tengok course offered cuz aku pun nak gak course yang aku boleh bawak n menjamin masa depan. i mean job opportunity. aku seronok belajar marketing tapi if there will be better offer, aku keluar. sayang memang sayang cuz kat sini aku dah kenal banyak orang n kebanyakkan dah rapat ngan aku cuz aku ni suka tego orang n usik usik orang. tapi memandangkan duk kat dalam kamsis ni pun boleh tension, camner la aku nak study.

well, its getting late. esok kelas full!
daa!

kamsis yang agak sengal

arghh..
living in kamsis sux!

lifestyle aku as pelajar ipt kat sini jauh beza ngan member member aku kat tempat lain.
pasal tatacara pemakaian kat sini aku tak ralat sangat cuz dah biasa, tapi sampai men paksa paksa lak kat sini. haiishhh..

ada beberapa perkara yang aku tak puas hati sikit..

1. kena turun ( compulsory no xcuse unless for ehem..ehemmm ) solat subuh kat pusat islam every single day. *insyaAllah, bila dah biasa, there will be no complaint on this. tapi yang aku tak satisfy ni bukan pe, kelas start at 8a.m sharp and there'll be no compromise unless you got a very extremely cool and sporting lecturer *like me ('',). solat subuh berjemaah biasanya start dalam 6.15 cuz nak tunggu semua melenggang sampai kat pusat islam tuh kan take time. lepas subuh, fo sho ada tazkirah. tazkirah lak klu nasib tak baik finish dalam kul 6.45. ok, here's the climax, MANDI. kena BEREBUT. typical, pompuan mesti nak bersiap lelawa including me,*hello, aku dah anak dara, mesti nak siap comey comey. silap silap kul 7.15 baru boleh mandi klu pkai turn. klu compulsory on weekend ke, tak la ralat sangat cuz elok gak, takde la terlajak tido ke hape ke.

2. outing pakai baju kurung. ni lagi satu aku nak hangin..
salah si senior senior and pompuan gedix yang sengal, aku yang sah sah skema pun kena tempias. dah mentioned befoe, that, baju tshirt kena lebih paras punggung ( labuh laa), then sluar jeans is a No No. * tapi dak laki pun ada yang bawak, tak kena tindakan pun. bila ustaz nampak dak dak sengal ni kuar pkai tshirt sendat n singkat (baju adek masing2 la senang cer), maka tergazet la rules nih.

3. nak kuar pkai kad outing and klu nak balik kampung, pakai kad balik kampung. arent we all IPT standard students? do we need to be like high school kids all over again?? memang on brightside bagus cuz leh detect pergerakan student, tapi think again, kad balik kampung? kad outing? nape? takleh ke just tulis nama kat pondok pak guard tuh and then let us out?? hairan bin ajaib aku ngan surrounding poli nih. bila lagii nak berdikari? one of my lecturer cakap, life kami kat poli kulim ni langsung tak seperti lifestyle student ipt yang supposed to be FUN! she said, camner nak survived kat uni nanti - klu sambung degree -? memang klu diberi too much freedom, akan ada kes siswi larik ikut boyfriend. tapi itu salah pompuan sengal tuhh..jgn la sebab nila setitik,rosak habes susus sebelanga. pi la titiskan nila tuh kat periuk sendirikk.

ada lagi la rules yang malas dah la nak tulis..*banyak lagi benda aku leh buat..

aku tak baper stuju ngan rule 1 cuz sekarang minggu exam n quiz. so, fo sho ramai study sampai pagi, and planning to take a nap after sahur. dengan adanya rules tuh, bertambah tensi woo..aku frankly dah rebel. aku tak turun pun ke pusat islam tuh eventhough aku sepatutnya jadik contoh cuz aku AJK blok. lantaklahh. ye la aku nih jenis study memalam, so tido tuh memang tak cukup laa. ni plak nak kena berebut bilik mandi lakk. ala, lagipun, senior senior AJK yang terlibat pun bukannya baik n ikut peraturan sangat. kerek je lebih. senior laki rileks je, senior pompuan yang OTT. tapi tak semua. yang mana rebel tuh, yang tuh la aku suka. hehehhehe. aku setakat nih tak langgar peraturan kamsis lagik except yang aku mentioned tadik and did tell you my kad outing penah kena tahan once cuz aku lambat balik dari outing ( it's just 15mins late ) tuh pun cuz aku gi carik makan n damn, kulim was packed and jammed at that time. tapi dah dapat balik after buat surat. so, nama dah ada rekod. first time dalam hidup aku ada rekod buruk, selama ni, even kat sekolah, aku budak 'baik'. rebel pun jenis yang rebel 'baik' gak. tapi kat sini,mmm. tensi wor.tekanan idop.

i cant wait to get home. lantakla nak label aku anak manja ke, *aku menang anak MANJA, lebih lebih ke, tapi try duk sini dulu and then baru cakap. kawan aku yang rata rata penah duk asrama pun cakap duk sini tak best, duk sekolah lagi best. aku jealous ngan member member aku yang agak bebas nak decide life sendiri, tapi aku kat sini, bila dah decide, takleh nak jalan cuz terikat. lecturer aku cakap, klu kamu takleh hidup ngan cara kamsis, better keluar cuz, buat apa duk kamsis tapi tension n plus, potensi untuk buat rekod buruk pun tinggi. dari ada rekod, baik duk kat luar.

yes, i know, duk umah sewa tuh bajet makan banyak and banyak la benda yang tak elok.
tapi, boleh ke aku survived ngan rules kat sini yang sengal tahap cipan?
kalau affecting my studies camne?

buat masa sekarang cam my beloved mak cakap,
"sabaq ja la.."

tapi cam manusia len gak, sabar aku ada tahapnya. jangan sampai aku leh gila dah laa..
aku mai poli ni nak study, bukan nak buat platform untuk masuk tanjung rambutan.


get me outta here!


sabar selagi ada, tahan selagi boleh, ikut selagi mampu..

ahlan wasahlan ramadhan al-mubarak

dah lama benor tak online...
agak tak berkesempatann...

firstly, selamat menjalani ibadah puasa buat semua yang tengok blog ni..

sepanjang dua tiga minggu nih, baru aku tau, camner culture shock dalam erti kata sebenar..
and i admit that aku hampir hampir ter-culture shock..tapi alhamdulillah, mungkin berkat belajaq kat kigs dulu, aku still alright.

things happened past few days and i wish i could turn back time.

tak pa la..

posa kat sini (poli) agak berbeza dari umah. kalau kat umah, boleh makan lauk pauk yang best best. bukan kat sini tak best, tapi well, there's nothing better than home rite?

ada sorang senior kat sini betul betul mengingatkan aku kat abang amin. bila tengok dia, teringat plak kau kat bro aku tuh. cara both of them sama. cuma perhaps my bro is cooler than abang tuh. hehehhehe.
i'm missing home actually. sahur kat umah, berbuka kat umah. teringat aku tolong bacakan doa makan. urm..maw tak maw kena fit in gak cuz sampai bila nak jadi spoil-brat. tapi the funny part, first day posa, my ayah and abang noikh sibuk call, tanya keadaan aku kat poli ni. huhuhu. taking care bebenor.

teringat first day sahur, tak bangun langsung. 2nd day, melantak nestum cuz aku segan nak turun cafe sorang sorang. semalam, baru jumpa geng yang turun cafe bersahur. huhuhu.
this week aku tak balik umah. aku plan nak balik start cuti nanti cuz sekarang nih minggu quiz and lecturer sibuk nak habiskan silibus for midsem exam nanti.

ehh..ada janji la plak..

well, see you around..

SeLamAt berPuasa!

yay! nak posa dahh

yay!

huhuhu..sonok aku nak posa..huhuhu.tp skang ngah pening nak balik ke tak weekend ni cuz cuti 4hari stgh. khamis ptg,jumaat,sabtu,ahad n isnin. leh sahur kat umah klu balik. tp member2 kat poli nih duk plan nak meronda. besh tuhh.. tergoda aku.klu aku balik pun bukan ada orang kat umah. ye takk.. tapi selaku seorang anak yang manja, mesti tringin nak balik gakk cuz nak jumpa mak.

minggu ni quite hectic. our beloved (handsome,young and not marry yet) marketing lecturer gonna lave poli to work kat uitm. aa...
dah r dia ajar besh..
nape cik firdaus? nape mesti pegi? hehehheh-poyoo-

quiz,assignments and stuff laa..

yes!anwar menang! sorry guys, i'm on the other side.

semalam aku masuk pertandingan karaoke lagu patriotik ngan member2 mewakili aras blok. aiyookk..malu sehhh! sumpah takmo terlibat dahh. haahahahha
balik kali ni aku tak banyak cakap sangat. bz ngan study, keja blok, polibriged n melayan perasaan sorang2. naak pun camtu except bila rina, member bilik hujung meh lepak kat bilik ni.. makan pun aku dah kurang. malam tak mkn, makan time lunch je...bahaya takk?
agak laa...

minggu nih minggu kemerdekaan so, banyak la aktiviti kat kamsis ni. agak letih laa..study lak setakat nih alhamdulillah. kuiz ekonomi aku dpt highest mark in class ngan sorang lagi. so, my next job is to keep it up and maintain my rep. ye takk..hehehehe.

aku belek2 paper, tetiba mata nih terlekat kat satu iklan jual laptop. urm..aku tak beli lagi laptop cuz kewangan still under control. nak kuarkan duit ptptn, takut next sem aku tak blaja kat poli dahh cuz aku apply uitm dec/jan intake. so, nnt ptptn tuh akan tercancel and kena repay on the spot 2500rm tuh..so, buat masa skang, pinjam laptop member laa. -ayat sedih giler-*ayat pancing sekalikk

k laa..
nak gi siap for class..

later!

cuti dah abeh!

ala..
cuti dah habeh!

esok start balik kehidupan poli aku. kuiz pun sedang menanti.

i'm heading back to poly later this morning. my ayah gonna drive us there and fazli pun tak jadi tumpang. dia tuh nak balik lambat sikit. lantakla. assignment secara keseluruhannya dah hampir siap. i've done my part and balik poli nanti, just nak combine ngan group member yang lain. dalam cuti ni aku ganti pose pose aku yang terhutang dulu. pastu aku terpikir, camner nanti nak pose kat poli nnt ha? sahur camner?

aku dah terbiasa idop kat umah, so tak sabau lak nak lalui pengalaman baru pose kat tempat len. ye la dah dekat 17thn lebey pose kat umah je. buka pose pun lauk besh besh! daging bakar cecah air asam..-perghh- ikan bakar, tomyam, ayam percikk, kebab,nasik kerabu,gulai perut..

duk sebut lauk pauk nih buat aku lapaq on the spot! huhuhu..

k la..
nak pi siap siap barang balik poli.

later aku sampai poli sambung balikk..
daa..

minggu yang ceria buat diri ini =)

yes!

at last!
i passed JPJ test after 3 kali aku repeat. third time's charm i guess!

huhuhuhu. raya pasnih leh r jejalan bawak kete (^_^). sepatutnya aku test on monday but it was postponed till wednesday (semalam). luckily aku passed. klu takk..front page harian metro, syarikat ilmu pandu kena bakaq dek puteri. huahuahua!

minggu nih best! last tuesday aku lepak ngan member member. tapi yang spoilnya, geng aku yang len kebanyakkan share the same course at the same institute. so, dalam gathering tuh, aku lebih banyak mendengar cerita depa. hahahahah. kesian aku! tapi it was the best day for this week cuz dah lama tak lepak macam tuh. kuar shopping, took pics with each other,buat bising kat KFC ( tu je yang mampu, nak pi pizza masing masing on budget ) =p.

btw, happy birthday to my niece and nephew, lala n arfan!

day after tomorrow nak balik poli dah. feels like sekejap je cuti nih. lucky assignment dah siap. yang tak siap tuh dateline lambat lagi. lagipun need discussion lak ngan geng kat poli. kemungkinan besar balik poli fazli tumpang. dunno the real deal yet but perhaps. dia pun tak sure cuz mamat nih asyik ajak aku balik naik bas ngan dia. siap offer nak bawak beg beg aku lagi. thanks but no thanks aku punya beg mmang agak banyak. lagipun agak leceh naik bas JADAM dari butterworth ke kulim tuh. setiap kali naik mesti cam sardin je.

baju baju banyak yang dah packing. klu tak, mesti aku pakai. =p

balik kali ni ramai bangat kata aku makin GUMUKS! oh nooo! ehhehehe. ye ke? aku tengok cam takk je. dahla kat poli tuh selalu order burger je. ade sesorang nih sllu sangat marah aku klu dia tau aku order burger. dia suh makan nasik gakk. huhuhu, taking care bebenor. (",). just wait and see cuti raya nanti. time abang-abang aku balik. mesti perli rapat punya. ayat ayat mesti makan dalam dalam punya.

tak sabau nak balik poli maen basketball lagikk. leh ngurat anak anak pensyarah sekalik.hehehe

k, till next time!
kudos!

ape? ko ingat ko sorang je ade keledek?hahaha

i just watched baik punya cilok (for the gzillionth time) and hearing the words coming out from AWIE's mouth just tickle me. i wont deny that AWIE does have a very good sense of humor.

sekarang dunia rancak dengan Olimpik. American's focusing on their golden boy, Mike Phelps cuz mamat nih keje kutip gold medals je. but in Malaysia, its a whole different story. paham paham je laa. front page sekarang tak letak dah gambar stadium sarang burung instead, muka wan nor azlin and the rest, you-know-who. bukan pe, a bit sick and tired la ngan all 'soap opera' ni. just leave it to TV producers ok. its their job to do soaps. not us!

whatever.

i got jpj test next monday. repeat actually. kalau aku fail jugak bukit kali ni, aku bakar bukit ngan kancil tuh sekali. it was weird. time practise, perfect score. tp, time test...
including next, third test already. i've passed yang jalanraya punya. siap kena perli lagi ngan officer tuh, buat kona baring. hahahahaha. takkan cuak kut! -kerek benor ayat aku-
well, pray for me ya!

earlier, a friend asked me (via SMS) something for me, slightly funny.

' putri, do you like ------ ?' i was like. WHOA! soklan cepumas!

' kinda. but he's just a friend' i replied. well this guy got someone already. *sedey? naahh..kumbang bukan sekoq!

'well, i think i'm falling for him but its not nice to be third party'
'so?'
'do you think he likes me?' asked her.

i was just smiling up to my ear. this girl really 'f u n n y'.

'i dont know. ask him. u know urself he has somebody already'.

'well,even if he's not, i'm gonna make him to.'

i was like, girl, you need to wake up! ni bukan cara buat si dia tuh suka kat ang. urm. after dozens of advises i gave her -me?advising?is the world turning upside down?- dia tetap nak buat cara dia. well, suit yourself.

------ is a close friend of mine. to public we might not, but we do. that's why this girl cam intimidate sikit ngan aku. i admit, aku prefer kawan ngan boys cuz based on my own experience, girls cant get enough.

hairan jugak aku, why girls/boys asyik pikir nak bercinta je? its not that aku ni baik tak bercinta ke hapa -oo!kantoi!- tapi pada aku, benda tuh juat sampingan je for students. sure ke hangpa kawen ngan kekasih hati yang sangat dicinta disayangi dikasihi tuh? bukan tak boleh tapi control yourself. to my friend. baru sem satu wehh! 10juta lagi orang ang bakal jumpa. chill la.

i've been fasting for the past few days. pose ganti. huhuhu. tu la! tangguh lagi. tapi hangpa pun dah pose ganti atau belom?

so, dah nama pose, duk umah je laa. kuaq satgi, iman tak kuat, terbatal dengan sengaja pulak pose tuh.hehehehe

farha's home. ariff's home. so, bila laa leh lepak sekali ni? izati tunggu aku ajak ja minah tuh pun.

jum la, lepak tengok tangkai jering la plak,man laksa kaa, zombie kampung pisang ka. beshh!

later!

i'm home yet i'm bored!

balik umah memang best.
sape cakap tak best duk umah sendiri?
lagi bebas kan?

tp...


BORING SEHH..

nak tunggu member yang cuti balik, cam lambat je lagi. so, i've got no one to lepak lepak with. nak main internet? err..malas la plak. plus this computer is slow! solution = ???

assignment dah start buat. tunggu nak finish je. skema kan? buat awal awal?
saje je cuz aku nak enjoy next week. so, kna la finish-kan in this week gak. next week bestfriend aku balik. bukan anie, tapi ariff. at least leh lepak ngan dia. so, aku tak la boring sangat. dua minggu cuti, tapi tak tau nak wat apa. blurr lagi ada la.

ingat nak shopping benda yg dah kehabisan stok.

tapi my beloved mak said, wait.

one thing for sure, loan ptptn dah masuk. it doesnt mean that i can enjoy cuma lega la gak duit dah ade. kaya sekejap. heheheh. pas abih study, kayap laa..

bila la member member aku nak balik ni??

aku boring sehhh!

people! i'm home!

yay!

midsem break dah start. tapi aku pun bukan leh enjoy. ade belambak keje nak kene buat.
sampai kat kangaq kul 5.30 petang. ayahanda tersenta amek. huhuhu. 15min after that, keluar ngan anie.
gi minum, jejalan. demam aku tak kebah lagikk.

terpikir gak, dua minggu kat umah nih nak watpe?

member member bukan ade lagik. anie pun nak balik UIA lusa. lone ranger gak la. nak tunggu aref balik, agak lambat lagi laa. urm. actually banyak plan ni. tapi belum tentu leh jalan ke tak.

urm. naak dah balik pahang, ngan ayeh. huhuhu. jeles la gak. hehhehe.

tadi on the way balik aku tido jek dalam keta. pening pala sehh. ni jangkit kat naak r neh demam nehh.

k lah. nak pi unpack barang.

daa.

mane teddy bear aku. winduu...

today in history

happy birthday aku ucapkan buat fendy

sape fendy?
urmm..dia neh jiran setaman aku. tau setaman? do i need to explain to you? explain je laa. bak kata NaAk, gunekan bahasa baku ye putri!
setaman nih maknenya same neighbourhood la. tapi mamat nih umahnya kat lorong lain.
kami kenal sejak aku darjah lima, and he was, errr, idk. forget oredi.
saling mengenali tapi tak pernah bertegur sapa pun. bercakap pun tak pernah lagik. kalau bertembung just senyum tanda kenal. yep, he's definitely older than me. he's 23 think. ahh, nevermind that. who really cares.

aku mengaku la ade crush ngan dia nih. he's damn tall and damn fair. hensem wooo. cant deny that. aku suka usha dia time dia balik keje. dia mesti lalu depan umah aku punya. tapi its just a crush. normal la girl cam aku ada feeling camnih. aku nih bukan kuat iman sangat. benteng takde.

moving on..

today, ade quiz economics. alhamdulillah, berkat aku study dan mula meminati subjek ni, aku rasa aku boleh buat kuiz tuh. pada aku, economics ni senang faham perlu rajin membaca. aku interested ngan syllabus eco cuz same as marketing, aku boleh berimaginasi. imagining me as sellers,consumers,entrepeneur and etc. so, with that, aku jadi lebih faham.

tapi sian kat NaAk, dia demam. dalam demam dia tuh pun, she tried her best.
not forgotten, aku dapat 90% marks for marketing quiz. mr firdaus cakap, kekalkan. although majoriti dapat 90% marks, tapi aku puas hati cuz aku jawab sendiri quiz tuh berbekalkan pemahaman aku and my knowledge. insyaAllah i'll strive for better results. pray for me will ya?

then, time polibriged, i was elected as assistannce to squad leader for marching. kawad lagi. dah le wajib untuk first sem. aku punya laa ingat tak kena kawad dah after high school and national service. tapi bagus gak, ada extra point dalam aku punya ko-ku marks.

walaupun just three weeks, i'm considering myself as active person.
-penolong ketua aras blok
-penolong squad leader utk kawad polibriged
etc..

okey la for first sem student eventhough just jadi penolong. it'll help me untuk stay kat kamsis next sem.

aku actually tak sabar nak balik this thursday. anie's home. so, bleh la aku lepak ngan bestfriend aku tuh.
and retake JPJ test all over again. wait! i need to renew my licence. GOSH! its sucks!

aku tengah cari masa untuk packing barang. tak sempat nak packing cuz aku selalu tido. hehehehe. tengokla, before khamis gak aku akan pack semua stuff yg aku nak bawak balik.

ermm..
till then..
ade class r esok and its getting real late.

kudos!

mari mengundi..

jom, pi undi ramai ramai. heheheh

hari ni adalah hari mengundi kat poli aku nih. setiap jabatan dah sebok tampal poster akak akak n abang abang senior yanuk bertanding. tadi aku pun pi la mengundi after jumpa cik farah amik soklan ekaun, n temankan naAk jumpa someone. rasa pelik laa.
aku tak kenal pun si calon calon tuh. camne nak tau depa tuh berkaliber tak?

hehehhehe.

hari ni aku cam split-mood sket. sekejap hepi, sekejap moody. tak tau kenapa, aku rasa sedikit down. hehehhe. masalah hormon kut. huhuhuhu.

yes!

aku ingat kena tunggu lagi tiga tahun nak berhubungan ngan seorang member dari plkn. dia sambung study kat yaman, so nak contact, agak kedekut r cuz SMS mesti pokai punya. tapi aku lupa aku hidup zaman canggeh. so, dia add aku kat friendster. hehehhehe. i like! pasnih leh r contact dia selalu.

pagi semalam buat kuiz marketing. aku ingat awal awal neh susah laa, rupa rupanya bleh tahanlaa. takla susah mana. so, insyAllah aku leh score cuz aku tak larat nak baca buku marketing yang tebal nak mampos tuh.
esok lak, kuiz ekonomi then account. pagi tadi buat kuiz mengejut comp.applicatioon. termangu aku sekejap mengingat balik komponen komponen komputer tuh.

urm.

dah laa..
aku sebenarnya duk blurr lagi nih..

minggu kamsis = kerenah senior

ermm..
tak penah lagi aku jumpa senior sesongeh senior senior aku. perempuan laa cuz senior lelaki takde hal sangat.

aku bukan nak persoalkan gender whatsoever tapi pada aku, akak akak kat sini bila ada pengaruh n power sket, mula la jadik 'songeh'. till yesterday nite, dah masuk hampir lima kali pelajar siswi ditahan after selesai solat isyak berjemaah. pastuh mula la nak tego tego. aku tak kisah pasal teguran, jerkah ke hape, tapi aku tak suka kerana nila setitik habis susu sebelanga. paham tak? orang lain buat salah tapi semua dapat. memang la cara nih didik teamwork tapi minggu ni objektifnya bukan teamwork lagipun kat blok, akak akak senior kebanyakannya kerek SIKIT. bukan melayan sangat junior. senyum pun jarang. harap kami yang start. aku nih tak larat nak senyum dah kat semua termasuklah kucing yang selalu lepak depan pintu bilik aku n NaAk.

sorang member lelaki kat sini penah tanya aku, "apsal korang asyik kena tahan je lepas balik dari pusat islam?" aku jawab je laa,"ntahla".

bajet akak akak tuh adalah bising..urm, aku tengok budak lelaki pun ada yang bersembang, tido.
entahlaaa...bila duk kena sembur dek akak akak tuh, aku tetiba rindu kat Sek. Men. Keb. Agama Perempuan Kangar Perlis. sekolah menengah sejak aku form 1 lagikk. rindu kenapa? rindu cuz suasana islamik kat sini tak sama ngan suasana islamik kat sekolah. i miss SMKAP. sering kali gak aku duk ulang kat member member, sekolah aku dulu tak macamni pu. dulu kat sekolah pun kena sembur gakk, lagi terokk, tapi aku tak penah la komplen. kat poli nih aku memang nak komplen.

assignment banyak, dateline assignment pun dalam minggu nih gak, so aku ingat akak akak tuh paham la keadaan rushing nak guna CC, nak siapkan grouping assignment yang memerlukan discussion tuh. tapi bila kena tahan, masa banyak terbuang macam tuh ja. sia sia tau takk.

dahla CC pun tutup pukul 11, same with kafe, tempat yang dibenarkan untuk discussion between siswa n siswi. nak dating pun kat situh laa. bila ditahan, kami dilepaskan almot at ten pm. ada sejam untuk buat semua kerja. tensii wooo..

aku komplen nih sebab aku dah terkena. assignment marketing aku yang boleh disiapkan sebelum pkul 12 terpaksa dihabiskan pada pukul 3.30pagi. cuz, malam tuh, kami siswi ditahan till 10pm lebih.
terkontang kanting aku buat till 3 pagi. tu pun nasib baik NaAk ada laptop. tapi laptop NaAk ni kerap stuck. lagi la tension..

malas dah la ngan kerenah akak akak nih.

urm...terasa cam minggu MSK, tapi truthnya ini minggu kamsis.

entahla, takmo buat akak akak kat sini jadi kak ipar.

songeh...

dulu english, now melayu

tukar style la pulak. tak larat nak ber-speaking. terasa kerekk dan poyo la plak.

now, my blog available in malay. hahahhaha

assignment mula bertimbun. selamba ja aku buat assignment marketing malam tadi till 3.30 am. dah la kelas pagi ni start at eight. now, poli buat rules baru. setiap kesalahan disiplin @ pe pe je kesalahan akan dikenakan denda berbentuk bayaran. maximum payment is 50bucks. worrr...jenoh nak bayaq. nak kena buat payment dalam masa 3days lak tuh (klu kena la..)

hehehe.meh aku nak citer bout classmate aku.

kelas aku ada 30 orang ja and diketuai oleh roomate aku, NaAk. tuh yang syok tuh, aku dah la satu bilik, satu course, satu kelas lak tuh ngan roomate aku nih. grouping assignment je mesti kami berdua duk dalam satu group. senang nak wat keja. setakat nih pun, assignment semuanya grouping. assistant monitor ialah keyrul. ustazah pend.islam cukup shayang ngan mamat telinga capang nih. dak nih orang selangor, dulu bekas sekulah agama cam aku, pandai mengalunkan ayat ayat suci Al Quran Kalamullah. tuh yang ustazah kami shayang tuh. aku? ustazah tak tauaku budak sekolah agama gakk. biarla, aku tak suka jadik target dalam kelas. nanti aku cepat grumpy. terasa cam mencapab pun ada.

dalam kelas aku ada 4 je budak lelaki. termasuk la si keyrul tuh. lagi tiga, faizal, fazli n zharif (ayeh). dlam kelas, aku digusipkan ngan fazli cuz kami balik kampung sesama. hahahha
seb bek mamat tuh hensem. tapi dak dak lelaki dalam kelas aku nh suma dah berpunya. so, aku nih ternyata jadi 'makwe' angkat je.

ayeh lak yang paling cute. ramai dak kelas n kursus lain minat kat ayeh n fzli nih cuz dua dua hensem n kiut. hikhikhik. dua dua baik ngan aku. huhuhuhu

aku panggil fazli ngan ayeh 'sayang'. tapi bukan aku sorang je panggil dua dua nih camtuh, NaAk pun terlibat, ema n ada la lagi yang baik ngan 4 orang jejaka idaman kursus pemasaran nih. faizal lak orangnya tinggi. dak penang. lupa nak gitau, ayeh budak pahang. senegeri ngan NaAk. hehehhe. rileks r, 4 mamat nih kawan je ngan aku. aku pun boring gak asyik ngadap muka girls je sejak form 1 dulu. nak gak mencapab ngan budak lelaki hahahhahahha. selambakk ja.

kalau nak list semua budak dlm kelas aku, memang banyak, tak dapat nak describe sorang sorang kat sini. cuz sumanya cam best jee..so, aku listkan la 4 orang mamat bertuah di atas sebab depa ada 4 orang jaa..hehehehe.

i'm waiting like hell now for loan dari ptptn deposit duit loan. ada yg cakap 3ogos, ada yang cakap 5ogos duit masuk. ada yang cakap sebulan lagii.. mak aihh..lamanya bila la loan nak masuk nih?

tadi baru lepas polibriged. aku pun agak keletihan akibat tak culup tido. tapi seronott gak life kat poli ni. seronot tuh tagline pensyarah marketing aku, mr.firdaus. ni sorang lagi, mr.firdaus nih bujng lagi, muda, n of course la hensem. tapi bila dia keluarkan tagline tagline dia tuh, ya Allah, childish lagi pensyarah aku nihh..hahhahaha. dah la minat naruto. tapi dia antara pensyarah yang rapat ngan kelas DPR1A n dia pun cool. walaupun bukan dia P.A kami, tapi kami lebih relax ngan dia. masuk kelas dia pun relax relax.

tak sabar r nak balik cuti midsem nanti. NaAk asyek duk ualng "nak balikk!" kat telinga aku. ye la, dekat tiga minggu tak balik umah, dah la jauuh. aku baru minggu nih tak balik. hehehheh. dapat gak merasa camner orang yang duk jauh tak balik. boleh la tahan teringat kat umah tuh. huhuhuhu.

tak sabar aku nak jumpa member2 aku yang cuti gakk. rindu sehh.

urm, life kat poli ni boleh la tahan selagi takde akak akak yang skema nak mati tuh. tego tego junior, alih alih, dia yang buat kesalahan tuh. agak sengal la gakk.

kat sini penekanan agama agak kuat la. baju kena lebih dari paras punggung for girls and takleh pakai sepipar even pi kafe. pastu attendance ke pusat islam diwajibkan ( x ralat sangat ) tapi yang takleh blah sikit tuh, lepas abeh solat isyakk je, mesti akak2 ajk MSK tuh tahan suma budak tak kira senior or junior pastuh bersongeh songeh n berleter leter. sape laa nak kawen ngan akak akak tuh ye..anda?

budak laki relax je. abg abg ajk MSK tuh tak sebok pun nak tahan2. akak akak ni je banyak songeh. pensyarah pun gitau," kamu jgn amik pot sangat ngan senior2 kamu, depa pun buat salah lebih terokk gak, tapi perasan buat baguih cuz ada jawatan". bukan aku cakap, tapi lecture arrr...

urm..forget that janji jangan kaco idop aku, harta benda aku, duit aku n keja aku dahh.

urm..

nak cakap pe lagi ekk..

nanti la sambung balik.. hehehehe

c ya.

putries!

as i'm not doing anything, (malas nak bukak buku...)
let me tell you a lil bit of this and that of my life..

i'm the youngest one in the family and the only daughter left after my late sister passed away long before i was born.

but first, there is Ayah. his name is Ahmad bin Abdullah. simple right? (how come my name is so long? idk) he was sort of my hero. sort of? well, we fight almost everyday. i'm used to talk back to him whenever he said things to me. (anak derhaka aku nih!) he's turning 57 this year. bornt on october 15th 1951 in kedah, he's now waiting to start his job back as pesuruhjaya sumpah (commissioner, i think). he didnt got his licence just yet. perhaps in august. many people and lots of my friends mistaken him being a chinesemen. my friends thought i'm a half malay half chinese. sometimes i just nodded whenever been asked bout this. (saje je). back then, i 'hate' my ayah so much cuz he used to yell at me. however, there's something that made me realised that he is my Ayah no matter what and he loves me. a neighbour once told me bout how he used to take care of me when i was little and my Mak is working. hearing that made me "i was so stupid to say i 'hate' ayah!". no matter what, I love my Ayah.

then there's Mak. i got to tell you, she's really beautiful even at her age now. she's beautiful to me forever. Tengku Hamidah Mas Abdullah Akhir. that's her name, as pretty as she is. soft,friendly and extremely patient. i love everything about my Mak. she's 58 now and bornt on march 15th 1950. her cooking beats everyone else and i miss Mak so much. back then, i used to sleep with Mak until i turned 13. whenever i'm merajuk, she hugged me. she's the perfect mak ever. i never recall the times she scolded me cuz to me all the times with her is happy hour and never ending sweetness. looking at her face ease my mind instantly. Mak, puteri sayang mak sangat sangat! you're my pillar of my strength, my merry go round, my love, my life!

next, Noor Ariff Ahmad. 33, married and have two kids. ( LaLa and FarFan ) his adorable wife, Kak Nana and him now staying at tampines, singapore. kak nana is from there and abang noikh ( what i call him) working there too. handsome, slightly taller than me, stylo la jugak, fair and caring. he used to be a cartoonist and frankly speaking, his artworks are SUPERBLY CREATIVE. he likes to 'kondem' me and pick up fights with me whenever he calls home. he calls Mak almost everyday. lebih manja dari aku! very friendly. modern type papa but still, he never forgotten about his roots. dalam diam, i respect him. dunno y. hahaha!

my late sis, Puteri Noor Akmar Ahmad. passed away on 1984, i think. high fevered. i never got a chance to know her, but what i can tell, if she's here with us, she'd be a beautiful lady and i'll be having the greatest sister ever. Arwah Kak Kema cantik sangat, and everyone else agree.

second bro, Noor Amin Ahmad 26, handsome, available and single. currently finishing his masters at Uni. Putra Malaysia. my favorite bro of all. likes to bullying me whenever he gets his chance and he's my idol. Abang Amin is the first one in the family got enrolled in university. to me he's true genius. looking up at him motivates me to be like him. he can be serious and funny all at the same time. still searching for the one. so girls, send in your resumes. very focus. i like to tease him 'cicak kobeng', 'loser' with hand gesture to go with it. everytime he got home, i'll become his manicurist and pedicurist. how come? i cant stand seeing his fingernails, and he's so damn lazy. dah la suka sekeh kepala aku, boleh mengong seminggu tau tak!

then, my third bro, Noor Akbar Ahmad. tallest in the family.his face and mine looks slightly the same. 22 and he's ill. not that ill ill, but he's an OKU. (poor him) having seizures and stuffs, he's staying at home with mak and ayah. i never been close enough with him, except naim but sometimes he also can't stand with him. he's hardworking, stubborn, generous and dont know how to lie to people. (well, he's getting better at lying..hahahahha). creative with his works.

well, my last bro, Mohamad Naim Ahmad. 20, cute and stylish. currently studying at Limkokwing University of Creative Technology, taking Animation as his studies. creative just like abang noikh sometimes can be so hilarious that's make him friendly plus quite loaded. currently living with abang amin. he works hard to get what he wants and his networking makes me jealous. he said i always get the things that i want but to me, he had the things that i want. he takes care of me whenever he's home and always pick up fights with me. he used to walk with me till i get to my tuition centre, (which mean he's caring instead not) or even go out and bought me reload cards and burgers. sometimes he annoys me so much that i cant stand him, but without him i felt quite boring.

lastly, ME.

manja, mengada-ngada, ketegaq dan lain lain. hahahhahah=p

so, that's all.
till then
got PI and English classes tomorrow.

putries.

akhernya! wireless!

yeahh!

i dont have to wait long enough to return to be an internet addict again!

thanks to my adorable and lovely roommate whom i called NaAk, now i can be on internet all the time here in our room. her mother sent her laptop through a friend of hers whose studying down here in UniKL(MSI). thank god we've wireless here. and lucky for us, our V4 116 (a.k.a room) just right beside our cafeteria which set up broadband, not PTSB wireless network. so, there'll be friendster and myspace EVERYDAY!

i going need to hire an accountant for myself cuz i spent too much on cash flows and its just been merely a month here. belum kira PTPTN nanti. i'm such a pembazir. hahaha. somehow, i love writing in MaNglish ( Malay+English). its like creating our own lingua-franca. err. its 2.30 in the morning now, and i've classes tomorrow. but i'm still wide awake. and NaAk looks like she's in trouble. i dont want to go to bed just yet until she comes in. she's outside now. doing what, talking to someone on the phone maybe. dear mate, hope you're fine. thanx by the way for letting me using the laptop, mate!

i'm still at lost on fundamental accounting. i'm confuse and desperate to learn the basic of accounting in Malay rather than in English. they,(you-know-who) start giving out orders to start teaching 1990's bornt batch in English except for Pendidikan Islam, to all Higher Education Instutes (whether public or private). i was like, ahh.. not english again. although it's my favorite subject in school, but what's in school are TOTALLY COMPLETELY different than in here. the courses textbooks are still in malays but we are required to learn in english and ITS A MUST! COMPULSORY, full stop! both roomate and i agreed that learning in malays quite better than in english cuz we can simply understand our mother-tongue better. sometimes it takes time to look up word in dictionary plus, to understand the whole text that's full with never-will-understand-unless-been-told-bout-it terms. its a struggle for us. i'm catching up. try to adapt myself in this hectic college student life. our free times=assignments,revisions need to be done.

urm.

i'll try my best! redeem what's before this.

i'm missing my buddies!
my mak, ayah, teddy bear, tv clickers,radio, bantal busuk (smelly pillow?), my katil.

i'm missing ******!

its totally different from home. i'm not used living in dormitories or something like that except back then in National Service's period.

so, now, i'm trying to fit in. i'll fit in. just maybe not yet.
spoil-brat. yes i am.

till then,
i'm going to bed

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putries!
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study desk


bluweghhh!