what if?

what if i went the other way round?

what if, i didnt go to SMKAP, instead of somewhere else?
what if, i didnt take science and just pursue another?
what if, i stayed at polytechnic and still read marketing?
what if..

susah nak jawab persoalan 'what if' ni. cuz the answer could be anything. anything yang we expected, we dream or it could be the unexpected.

pernah jugak aku terfikir, pe yang jadi ngan my life if i choose the road i did not take? if look and turn back time, there are somethings that i would like to change but to think bout it again, i wont. if i change everything, it wont be the same as now. macam butterfly effect.

for questions above, here some answers i could think of and might happen:

question 1:
a) go to derma
b) go to boarding school
c) go to local school yang biasa-biasa

question 2:
a) taking accounting
b) go to technic school and take fashion
c) aliran sastera kut?


question 3:
a) dah jadik student sem 2
b) tengah happy-happy dengan member-member poly
c) insyaAllah, jadi exect marketing yang cumel;p

tapi jawapan kat atas ni, if only je.


its not i'm not happy here in uitm tapi bohongla aku tak rindu kawan-kawan kat poly cuz i'm close with them. we shared problems together. the whole class.

kat uitm ni, aku hanya close ngan fews. my roomates -fatin n akak zira-, classmates -seha, and the downtown gang- tapi that's it. tekanan projects membuatkan aku tak berapa nak bergaul dengan yang lain.

otw balik dari kl, noremon ada berkongsi cerita dengan aku. bila dengar, its like satu lesson. plus, when i got here in uitm, jadi pula satu hal. roomate aku 'clash' ngan bf-nya. lepas kena 'basuh' dengan aku, a friend of ours baru dia diam. tergelak jugak bila keluar dengan akak zira pergi beli barang bilik petang tadi, yang da cakap aku ni macam matang dari usia aku. dari segi thinking. little they know, aku dengan family, aku childish. mungkin dengan kawan-kawan jadi lain. huhu~

uiks
ada janji ngan somebody. gotta go!